Thief's Log Chapter 26 + 27

Hey guys, Ara here.

I dropped off the face of the earth for a few weeks there... Apologies.

It's been an time of heavy introspection.

Depression does that sometimes.

I've been dealing with a lot of personal stuff. A big steaming heap of life shoveled onto my precariously balanced plate.

This coincided with the loss of two women who held a significance in my life.

I wrote a lot of my feelings into a poem.

The Loss of Two

I cry for you

Howl to the moon for you

Your impact is shattering

Like the tide

None of it will bring you back

Nothing can

I don't know if I believe

In heaven or hell

But the you I know

Will ascend

I hope your belief

Comes true now

Those left will go on

So much emptier

Without you...

Love only helps the living

Yet we will continue

To love you

To think of you

Constantly

Even if it won't bring you back

While I'm on the topic of poetry here is another new poem.

I Hate Songs About Happiness

Happiness is a construct.

A figment of an idea.

It can't be measured.

It can be exaggerated.

So often blown out of proportion.

Made into something unattainable.

Something impossible.

Yet happiness is what we strive for.

A hunger that can't be satisfied.

Because if we question our happiness,

Does that mean we aren't happy?

It's impossible yet still it seems,

If we aren't 'happy' all the time

Then we aren't happy enough.

Or at all.

It is a myth?

It drives so many to ruin.

Because small happiness isn't enough.

It isn't distinct.

It can't be defined.

But we are told to strive for it.

Search for it.

Capture it.

That's not what happiness is.

It's not an absolute state of being.

It's not some kind of epiphany.

Its ever changing.

Moment to moment.

It's great to have but

If it weren't fleeting

It would make us stagnate.

Because why would we change?

Why would we move forward?

When that hard won thing

Was finally ours?

It has become a delusion.

A vain hope,

Of vein people.

That some state of nirvana

Called happiness

Exists

Somewhere…

So both poems have gone into the poem pages (page 2 and 1 respectively) in the River.

With that out of the way I'd also like to report that Thief's Log chapter 26 is now release for free consumption.

This is the last Fool's Log chapter, for now.

This means that chapter 27 is available for my Patreon and Buy Me a Coffee subscribers.

I've also been fixing several broken links around the site. If you notice any that I've missed, please let me know.

I'll be working more on the site in the next few weeks.

I also have a lot of editing to do. That will take awhile.

Anyway, I will aim to have a new chapter of Ghost next week.

For now, ta-ta.