A Little too Ambitious This Week...

Hey guys,

Ara here.

Just a quick update today, as things on my end are a little precarious.

It seems that my plan of writing a chapter with all the real life shit going on this week was a bit much. I'm feeling quite burnt out, today especially.

So I've decided to give the chapter release a miss this week as I need to wind down.

I have a number of internal website issues that I need to fix as well, just SEO stuff which I'm learning as I go...

That being said if I do manage to finish the chapter that I'm working with right now in the next few days (unlikely, but not impossible) the I will release it, however I would rather take my time working through it when I'm less emotionally exhausted. So I will probably make it next weeks release.

I normally like to wait until Sunday or even Monday to write off a week, but I can already tell that I'm going to struggle over the next few days. So I'm taking the stress off my shoulders now, so I don't beat myself up over it in the next two days.

I'm also not here empty handed, as I have put my current feelings into a poem... I call it The Burn. It's now up in Poetry page 5 in the River collection.

Here it is for those interested:

The Burn

I'm severing the rope Which once bound us In one swift moment My burdens are eased Despite your blind expectations The rope burn on your hands Does it sting?

I gave you an inch Slackened the rope When you asked for help But you took more and more As you pulled, parts of me fell away And you moved to a place Where you couldn't see or hear me

​Still unknowing I cried out For help For salvation As the rope became taunt When I could give nothing more You kept going, without a care As I cried and screamed

Dragging me like a doll On a string Over brambles Over ashfelt It didn't matter You didn't see me You didn't hear me

The burning pain in my chest It's still raw But with our connection gone I can begin to heal I cannot give you anymore So please leave me be I'm tired...

I need to collect the pieces My pieces Now left scattered Some already lost I will combine them Into some semblance Or new version Of the human I once was.

Anyway that's all from me for now, and potentially for this week.

Hope everyone else is having a better week then mine.

Ta-ta.